Who are you when there's no one around?
Who are you when the blinds are closed, the curtains are pulled and the kids are running around wild?
Who are you when you're with you're closest friend?
Who are you when you're at Church?
Who are you?
Integrity...oh man this is a hard subject to write about. I prayed for 2 weeks on what I should write, I don't want to seem a hypocrite. I don't want to condemn someone so please please I hope you hear Jesus in my post...I hope you pray for God to speak to you through this post...*deep breath* here we go...
I struggle with integrity, the kids are acting crazy my husband is in a mood and this momma goes on defense yelling and screaming at the world. I walk in the Church and I'm all "oh yeah I'm fine how are you?" quickly trying to find the nearest exit so I don't have to look anyone in the eye...
God sees us acting a fool infront of our kids but turning around with freshly ironed shirts and shined shoes walking through the Church doors. We're not hiding from God so why would we even try?
"I will be careful to live a blameless life-when will You come to help me? I will lead a life of integrity in my own home. I will refuse to look at anything vile and vulgar...I will have nothing to do with them. Psalm 101:2-3 NLT
I know the world is pulling and tugging at your heart everywhere you go. I know sometimes you get frustrated, sometimes you let your gaurd down and sometimes you just don't want to let anyone in to see the ugliness. Trust me when I tell you...we've all got ugliness. We're all selfish, we all struggle...you're not going through anything Jesus didn't go through but He didn't sin...ever.
I pray and pray for God to help me lead a life of integrity. I want to walk the faith at home that I proclaim to the world. I want my family to see Jesus in me because frankly they need to. I'm desperate for a revival in my family. Day by day I see Him working on me, don't you want the same thing? It is possible to not yell at your kids, it is possible to actualy show genuine love to your husband. It IS ok to walk in the Church and not be ok..Jesus Himself said he didn't come for the healthy but for the sick..if you're not ok dear sister tell someone! Find help from someone you can trust fully.
There are some real ways to walk in integrity..it may take a minute, you might stumble and lose your balance a few times but when God sees you trying to honor Him He's going to help you..it's one choice at a time
1) Have NO tolerance for evil "I will refuse to look at anything vile or vulgar.." Latley we've been turning the TV OFF at night. My eyes have been opened to just how bad TV has gotten, including the commercials. I REFUSE to let that junk into my home anymore. Play a game instead, read a book to your children, get a devotional and have your husband read it...my Pastor always says "Garbage in, Garbage out.." what you put into your brain is eventualy going to come out of your mouth. Have NO tolerance for evil.
2) Closely monitor the type of people you allow to influence you "I hate all who deal crookedly; I will have nothing to do with them" Vs 3-4 Pay attention to those "friends" you just aren't sure about..if they are making you question anything about God, if they are making you feel sad, lonley, angry, doubtful then they are NOT who you need to be around. Ask God to show you, give you wisdom and guide you.
3) Recognize your need for divine help "I will becareful to live a blameless life-when will you come to help me?" Ask God for wisdom, guidance, strength but most of all..courage. You're not going to be able to do any of this without courage. Courage to say NO to the world, courage to say I want something better for my family, for myself.
Yes, this subject is hard. It's intense...but a necessary step we need to take to change our lives and walk blamelessly before God. Will you with with me as we begin to walk in integrity?
**Excerpts from The Resolution for Women book