By: Grace Metzger
Where can I flee from Your presence?
if I make my bed in the depths, You are there.
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
Your right hand will hold me fast.
Recently I've had my sixth surgery, removing my tenth tumor. When you've had that many surgeries people tend to ask you how you do it, how you can stay positive during those moments in your life. Peace during difficult moments is a hard thing for people to understand. For me it took years to figure out how to find peace even through the struggling.
I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge.
For me it started during my third surgery, I was 16 years old and like most 16 years old I was full of angst and drama. This particular surgery failed, due to this I lost feeling in my left leg and it affected the way I walk even to this day. I was angry at everything and struggled to understand why this was happening. I had lost all of my peace during this time and felt distant from God. This continued on for longer than I like to admit until one day I looked back at that time in my life and saw God's hand in that moment; I was able to see how God was able to use that awful moment for goodness. He used that moment so that way my grandmother can visit me, she visited me about a week after that surgery then passed away two weeks later. That was my last memory of her and without the surgery I wouldn't have had that moment with her.
throne of grace with confidence,
find grace to help us in our time of need.
Looking back I can see God's fingerprints throughout my whole life, even in small ways like McDonald's giving me free ice cream when I stopped there before my MRI to check if I had cancer, Moments like that I can look back at and see that God was there then and He will be with me now. God has had His fingerprint on my life throughout everything and from that I can draw peace from it even during the storms.
God is there throughout our whole lives, and He continually shows us that He is with us. But because we are so distracted with the storms of the world, we often miss the signs that He's giving us. I challenge you that the next time you are struggling, look back at the times that God was there for you during other hard times. Remind yourself that He was there then and He will be there for you now. For me it's helped in the past of keeping a list of all those moments, reminders for myself that I look at whenever I am struggling. A reminder that God is with me and you throughout everything.
Discussion Question: what are some of the small ways God has shown you that He's with you?



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