Thankful Thursday...today I am having trouble with the 'thankful' part of this day. It is stupid really. I know in my head that I don't always have to have my own way. Goodness, I don't ever have to have my own way. So why is it that when I don't get my way that it puts me in a rotten mood? Why is it that when things don't go the way I want them to that I get upset? Does it matter that I don't get MY way? We can pass off our little attitude at not getting our way as 'human response' but I don't really think that flies with God.
As a follower of Christ are we not supposed to act different than the world? As a follower of Christ don't we go around saying 'not my will but His be done?' Well, I have failed...again! Yes, I am human and I want things my way...and...yes, I am a follower of the Lord and I want His will in my life. So why don't those two things line up with each other? They don't line up because I only see a small portion of the puzzle and God sees the whole thing. My way could have an adverse effect on the bigger picture and because I don't see the bigger picture, I don't know that. God does.
So...I will relent. I will give it to God and allow Him to work. I can't change this thing anyway. Only God can do the work. I give in...I turn it over to God. I am thankful for His hand on my life and I trust Him to know what is best.
God forgive me for trying to manipulate things to fit my way. As I lay down the controls again, I ask you to pick them up. Help me to stop yanking them out of Your hands and to trust You because You know best.
Have a blessed and thankful day.